I notice it so quickly. Because I can just feel that everything between us changes. I notice it right when it begins just from the little things. Their replies are gradually getting slower, shorter, and meaningless. Our conversations start dying quicker and quicker and leave off on an awkward note. It makes me wonder, is this what they want or is it something that we both can’t help?
What else am I supposed to think about? To fall asleep, it’s basically required for me to think negatively to sleep. Otherwise, I won’t be able to. I’d be up all night doing the same, except much worse because i’ll be able to do something for the worse and not stop myself.